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¡Hola! The theme for Wonderly this month is change, and that's what I'm gonna talk to you in this video.
Hay dos cosas that I think about when I think of change.
One is power, and the other one's adventure.
The reason I associate adventure with change, is because growing up
and moving to different places, different cities I learned to associate
changing where you are at in life
with always expecting better things. Y para muchos immigrantes
that's the reason they leave where their from to find
bigger and better things, right? That's why a lot of people come to the US
Now, I associate power with change because I had a revelation
when I was maybe twenty many years old. When I went to university
for the first time, when I was 17, I went to the other side of the country.
I went off on one of those "life changing" adventures.
It didn't really turn out the way I wanted -I wasn't having many positive experiences after a while.
In the middle my junior year I got back to campus in a few days before clases officially started.
I remember I had to buy groceries from target.
My earmuffs had broken before I left for Christmas break but I forgot to get new earmuffs...
and so I had short hair back then.. I remember walking down this path
to take the bus
and it was so windy and snowy
that my ears were burning, my nose hurt so bad..
it was burning. ¡Y me enoje tanto!
I was SO pissed! And I remember thinking..
"I am never walking down this *** road again!" And something
clicked in my head. And it told me to go home, you need to leave here,
you're not enjoying your time. And somehow, in that moment
I was infinite.... No I wasn't. [laughs] No I wasn't.
I mean, in that moment, somehow... you know when you have like that
magical opening of a thought? It's not even a thought
but you just have that feeling.. and your life changes.
I had one of those moments then and I realized: one of the things that
makes you an adult is that you have the power to decide what life you live, what life
you don't live, and at what point you wanna change whatever life you're living.
You know I realized it's okay
to say you made a mistake and just go back home,
and figure out what school you actually wanna go to.
And the reason I wanted to make this Wonderly themed
video, is because I'm going through a lot of change right now.
I came home again from one of my "adventures" which if you even watched videos
before this, which I took down because they're awful, you know that I
left LA for a teaching job across the country, in Mississippi.
I need to find a place to live, I need to find roommates..
This time, now being 25, this change feels a lot more
like power, whereas the time when I came home from university,
that time it felt like failure. And even though
I feel like I did fail some people it because it didn't keep my promises
to stay where I was
I feel like this is a positive change because I would have failed myself
had I not left the situation that I was in.
And the reasons for the move I guess are not
really relevant in this video maybe I'll explain it in the future,
I don't really want to talk about it right now.
But yea, I feel so much more strongly now about change being tied to power
your power as an adult, and as a person to direct your own life.
And you know, change feels so surreal.. I keep telling people around me that
I feel like I'm in the Matrix. One day was reality was
this one, and I drove through different roads
and I went to work at certain places, and I went to eat,
and saw certain people and it's like suddenly
I yanked my car onto another lane, to this totally different reality.
Three days ago my reality was different, four days ago my reality was different,
'cause I was driving through the US to get home.
through the US to get home
and it just feels so weird.
And change feels weird and scary, but it feels like adventure
and it feels like power.